Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Enhancing Self-Awareness and Self-Esteem
14 weeks have passed and the journey taken in Life Management Skills (LMS) classes was remarkable! It was simply amazing. Although it was just another IS module in Ngee Ann Polytechnic, I have learnt the essential of life and the meaning of it. In the past, I use to think that knowing about life is meaningless and it is not related to me. However, after these 14 weeks, it has change my thought about my life and how I'm living it. I feel that it has taught me the essence of living life to the fullest and how I can mange my life well.
[[Enhancing Self-Awareness and Self-Esteem]]
For enhancing Self-Awareness and Self-Esteem, I feel that this module has benefited me a lot in one way or another. I originally have low self esteem, low self confidence and I tend to withdraw away from crowds because I like being alone. I still remember when I was primary six; I had no idea why I was stressed out. I just felt that whatever I’m learning do not get absorbed into my head. At that time I had difficulty talking to my mother; I feel that she does not understand me well. I never felt love from my mother at that time although she claim that she loves me. All she does is to give me mountains of homework and when I never finish them, she reprimands me. Thus, my only way to dis-stress is to write all my thoughts and feelings in a diary and secretly pray for help. As we all know, sometimes when we are in primary six, we have to keep, write about what we feel in a diary and hand it up to our teacher. At that point of time, I thought it was a little redundant. But come to think of it now, I glad it came in handy. I went into deep depression, and I was anorexic. I wrote all my negative feelings in the diary to vent my frustration somewhere else. Luckily, my knight in shining armor came to my rescue, who happens to be my teacher who marks our class dairies, talked to me made me understand and see more positive things about myself instead of concentrating on negative thoughts. Although I still do ask myself, who am, I still want to find out my real identity but I’m still facing difficulty doing so. I would say that LMS had helped me in my overall thinking. For the past 6 to 7 weeks before our e-learning, common test and vacation week, I learn to manage my anger and time well. Most importantly, I found “pieces of me” that I have lost for the past few years of my life. While learning about self esteem and self confidence, I actually realized that having high self esteem leads to high self confidence as well. I have confidence in saying I have higher self esteem now compared to the past. Now that I have self-awareness and healthy self-esteem, I'm are able to value myselfs as unique individuals of worth, take actions for self-improvement, and cope better with setbacks. My relationship skills has be enhanced as I'm are able to communicate more effectively with others and be more open to others.
When you face your fear, most of the time you will discover that it was not really such a big threat after all. We all need some form of deeply rooted, powerful motivation -- it empowers us to overcome obstacles so we can live our dreams.
Author: Les Brown
